I Cannot Feel the Pain

Compulsive skin peeling disorder and the release of stress by hurting the body is the subject of this story.

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The pain, or the act of destroying the body, becomes an addiction, and the physical unconsciousness has the power we cannot imagine.

As I've grown older, I've experienced some irreversible changes on physiological level. They may not kill me, but you have to learn to live with them.

In this process of acceptance, I am both a source of destruction and a victim, disgusted and accepting that not all diseases can be cured, and not all problems have answers. Finally it formed a closed loop of pain.